CA

Alright!

Just very compact:

Sat. the 5th : Lots of flying, but with internet =) and arriving in Santa Barbara. Linda picked me up at the small airport and took me to her appartement in Goleta "Isla Vista". A city with 20 000 students=)
But I was dead and so we just waited until 12 to say happy birhtday to linda and went to bed

Sun. the 6th : BBQ at the beach! Started out as big big big big chaos but somehow we managed it to rescue Lindas birthday and had a great great time.
Imagine a group of young people, everyone carrying something: a grill, a gas thing for the grill, food, drinks, cooler etc. we went to the beach "around the corner" which happend to be kind of far (20min walk) away. but we had out bbq on a cliff, with pefect view just on top of the beach =)
Went out in the evening in the student city "isla Vista" where Linda has an appartement. We met some friends of her room mates who were about to drive home to San Diego the next morning. After 5 minutes we were invited to go with them and stay a night there.

Mo. the 7th :

Went with Adam and his friend to SD and got a privat tour to all secret places the city has to offer! MOST BEAUTIFUL CITY IN CA!

Tue the 8th: Took the early train home to SB cause Linda had class at 6pm

Wed the 9th: Linda took me to SB downtown. It was very nice! Beautiful beach and I ate the first time at Yoghurtland!!! AWESOME FROZEN YOGHURT!!!

Thurs the 10th: spontaneos invitation from Lindas friends to go to Santa Monica and L.A. for 2 DAYS =)

Santa Monica was awesome! Venice beach was so beautiful and the streets were crazy.

Fri the 11th: L.A. was kind of ugly. Beverly Hills and the walk of fame rocked though =)

Sat. the 12th : Big road trip to San Francisco. 8 hours drive on route one. And what did we have from the damn view? Nothing because it was so damn cloudy... well, it was still nice. The search of a place to sleep was crazy, since we thought someone from couchsurfing would call us ( we wrote over 25 msges to people" and all hostels were sold out. so we had to find a cheap motel and we did eventually...

Sun. the 13th : San Francisco. Its an amazing city... if you are there, you don`t feel like in america. Its completely differend and so delicious seafood!! OMG!!

Pictures coming soon... don`t have my cable with me!!

have a nice week!

This must be the paradise!

Im sorry that it took me so long to write about my California trip and that there aren`t any pics online yet.
But since the weather is absolutely gorgeos, my friend Lindas appartement 5 minutes away from the beach is, her roommates so funny and I always find something to do, its kind of hard to write. Even though I have already expereinced stuff for 5 new posts!!
The pictures can`t be online before I`m coming back to NY because I forgot the USB cable there...

Well I gonna start with the arriving in NY Friday night. I had a horrible busride. In the seat infront of me where 2 girls listening to their iPods and kind of dancing with it (my knies are pressed tight towards the seat infront of me, so I can feel the slightest movement) oh well, we arrived at some point (00.30) I needed more time than others to exit teh bus, checking all my personal items... Then I saw, that one of the girls forgot her iPod. I took it in order to give it back to her. Unfortunately I saw her already walking away, but I had to get my luggage (one trolley and a sport bag). I must mention that the bus stops at New York Pennstation. Its REALLY busy and kind of dangerous.
So its me with a backback, huge trolley plus sportback and a pink iPod in my hand trying to catch up with the girls. Well at some point I lost them. Obviously people saw that I can`t find what I want. The next moment a black guy walked right next to me, asking if I need a cab. I said no I´m fine... The next thing I know is: He asking "what is this?" I looked at him and woops! the iPod of the girl wasn`t any longer in my, but his hand ^^ he wasn`t even running away. He walked a bit faster than before and just said "don`t follow me fucker" and I was like " shall I really drop all my bags, run after a black huge guy who probably has fights every day, trying to get back an iPod which doesn`t belong to me?" bad idea... Yes I got mogged in NY =)

Well I have to go on traveling now.. I hope I`ll write more soon!

I knew this day gonna come....

I`m really sad. Even though a lot of people are already gone from my area. Even though I`m not really connected to my hostfamily. Even though there are only 3 close friends left in Virginia. Even though I`m going to California....
I feel like losing my identity, my home, my friends. Even though I know that Germany is my identity, full of friends and my real home.

Sometimes I`m getting crazy because I don`t know how to deal with the whole situation. I am terrified!! Maybe my body just don`t know how to deal with all the different sensations, which are melting together. The excitement of the trip, the sadness of leaving, the fear of the "real" life, happiness of coming home, satisfaction because of a fantastic year and the imagination to how many good people I must say good bye in the next couple of weeks. You see, there is a lot going on.

One of the few persons, who really could help in those situations, is gone or better I made her go. I hope she is not gone forever cause I really care for her. Last Saturday I ended the relationship to Taise. I knew that I would lose her support for this time with that action, but you got to be honest with yourself. Even if you know, that the right decision doesn`t lead to a win-win but a lose-lose situations.

I have no idea how to put all this. I`m extremely confused and the best thing I can imagine right now is, that someone always knocks me out, becoming my double, 5 minutes before each good bye, to do that job for me.

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate good byes. I met wonderful people here and I`m not able to say good bye in person, only because I forgot about the time and gave unimportant things a higher priority! It feels very wrong and the worst thing about it is, that I can`t change it. I only have one and a half days left here in VA. And the list of people who deserve a personal good bye, a little bit of information why I disappeared at some point, what i did in the time of not seeing each other. People who actually deserve a farewell present.

I know that this might just a feeling for another 30 minutes and then the excitement about CA is much bigger than all those other sensations, but aren`t we humans tending to write down, rather something we don`t like, rather about feelings we don`t like, than about great things and feelings we do like?!

My stuff is packed! Tomorrow I`m taking off to New York and the next day to California!

Have a great weekend !!


Ps: I made a big step and shaved my head.... I mean I`m losing my hair anyway, so why don`t take a look at what is about to ocme?! :D